april fools' day

after stepping back from KL.. the world came crashing down. i fell ill, felt terrible and all of the sudden, we bounced from having huge lofty plans to battling with being together. just making each other happy. 

suddenly knowing everything about the one you love seems such a painful process and even making plans for saturday evening seems so far out. 

last night when i stayed over, he pushed me away repeatedly. i don't really blame him. i would push me away too..